Xin xian's blog

2010-05-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE~~

ok, my previous post sound super emo~
but to those who cares,
i am TOTALLY FINE NOW!
everyday is like a nightmare to me,
so i dun have time to think of anything unhappy anyway~
hahahaha

***THANKS GEOK SIS FOR HELPING ME WITH THE MAKE UP***
***THANKS PEARL SIS FOR GOING SHOPPING WITH ME AND CHEER ME UP***
***THANKS WAIMING, SOOKUAN & DENISE FOR READING MY BLOG AND SHOWING CONCERN***
***THANKS CARL SIS FOR LISTENING TO ME CRAP***

2010-04-01T19:03:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since i last blogged.

for the first time,
stayed over at polar's house.
i felt tired and cold for some reason.
>.<

went to wild wild wet before shine start attachment,
and before jiayue flew back to China.
it was quite fun ^_^

i don't know if i have taken things for granted,
or i have been expecting a lot from people,
or i have been too dependent on people.
i realize that there is no such thing that someone will be with you when you needed it even though you believe you are close.
i learnt that i should not stay with the same people,
and i should move ahead and be more socialized.
i felt pangseh,
i felt lonely,
and for the first time,
i tell myself to wake up and move on.
no one is going to help you or stay with you,
so just look at the reality and stop begging.
nothing will come up just because you keep pestering people.
if other people can do it,
so can i!

I was feeling down,
but no one realized it.
i dunno whether to say that i can hide my feelings well,
or i just don't have friends who actually notice at me.
i choose to believe in the first assumption.
i may laugh and joke in front of people,
but how many people actually know that i am crying in the dark?

2010-02-16T08:30:00.000+08:00

A happy Chinese New Year, & Happy Valentines' Day to everyone~!
This year, fortunately (or unfortunately), Chinese New Year Clashes with Valentines' Day.
To me, both doesn't matter.
First, no relatives in Singapore.
Second, no boyfriend.
Conclusion, A SLEEPING DAY.
God knows how many hours i have slept in the past few days.
I think the total hours is much more than how much i slept for one whole week add together.

Exams are coming,
i am still in "sleeping" mode.
and i am totally not looking forward to "waking up".
i rather continuing to be sleeping "ugly".

2010-02-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

It's 1.36am now...
guess what i am doing?
staring into blank space, with a stack of taxation notes in front of me.
all of the sudden, i feel like writing something in my blog which i didn't touch for 1.5 months.

my 19th birthday just went by in a blink...
a lot of people text me "Happy Birthday",
my reply is always "Thanks".
However, what i really feel like saying is,
"i am not feeling happy on my birthday at all".
this feeling had been built up for a long time,
i didn't mention to anyone, and no one bother to ask me anyway...

i am reflecting back on my past these few days...
in kindegarden, i celebrated my "grandest" birthday ever,
i done my first performance on stage in kallang theater,
got my longest friendship ever.
in primary school, got my first specs,
got my first "1st prize",
got my first full marks,
got my first chicken pox.
in secondary school, met the best cliques of friends,
become the student councillor,
become part of executive committee,
try my best for the first time in CCA,
cried in public for the first time,
breaking down in front of my clique,
staying up multiple nights for D&T,
breaking fast together during night study,
singing endless birthday songs.
in poly, getting to a ridiculously far school,
chionging project days and nights,
fickle minded about the course i want.

a lot has happened in the past.
but when people ask "are you happy?"
i really don't know how to answer them.
sure enough, i have friends, but i can't help feeling lonely sometime.
sure enough, i choose the school, but i can't help feeling regret sometime.
what am i expecting for the future?
go with the flow and become an accountant?
people said that we will never be happy with the job that we have no interest in.
my mum said otherwise, "how much does interest worth?"
i know choosing accountancy is a rational decision,
but is it what i really wanted?

2009-12-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

メリークリスマス~~!

2009-12-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHHH~~
I am sick again...
i can't believe i got sick because of slight drizzle!
i felt so horrible now.
don't ask me to remain in good mood!

2009-12-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

おめでとう to fellow year 2 ACC students~
this marks the end of CT~!

i am proud to say....
i am gonna flunk this CT~
>.<

2009-12-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

みんあんさん、こんいちわ。

i doubt that there is anyone who is reading my blog.

oh well,

i will just continue to post as usual,

afterall,

i use this as a platform to say what i normally wouldn't say out loud,

and to remember the memories i have experienced.

it is almost Christmas ~

this's the season to be jolly~

falalalala~ lalalala~

have all of you decided what to give to your loved ones?

i guess i will be skipping Christmas celebration this year...

T_T

the original plan is to go genting or chalet,

but in the end,

none is going to be taking place.

i am a bit disappointed as i am really looking forward to celebrating Christmas,

especially if i can go genting,

since i have never been there before.

Instead,

i will be spending my term break doing projects as well as revising for my Economics test.

tmr is the start of the common test week.

frankly speaking,

i am not well-prepared.

many people have expectations for me,

they believe in me to do well.

however,

i felt that i am not as good as what they expected.

i felt pressurized when someone say "you confirm can get high marks".

the more they expect from me,

the more i am afraid to disappoint them.

i know that i should have more confident in myself,

but as the day of exam gets closer,

i get freak out,

and nothing gets into my head.

i guess i still need to work on my stress management.

hehe. *(0_0)*

私は日本に行きたい
i know i shouldn't be thinking about it now,
but the more i try not to think,
the more it keeps popping into my head.
hehe.
but first,
must find someone who is willing to go with me. >.0

2009-12-03T06:03:00.000+08:00

from my playlist,
you might have guess it...
i am addicted to "Full Moon Wo Sagashite".
i read the manga and watch anime coz they have quite different plots.
i cried in some of the episodes.
T_T

i have become quite sadistic recently..
>.<
i love shows that make me cry...

2009-12-01T04:21:00.000+08:00

私はK さんの大好き！
the first person to realise that i start blogging again.
hahaha~~
thanks for the call,
i felt much better now T_T

2009-11-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

のどが痛い。
でも
私は医師が好きではない。
the cough is getting worst day by day...
i can't sleep much due to the cough now...
T_T
i sure hope miracle will happen~~

2009-11-28T02:47:00.003+08:00

こんいちは.
私は戻ってきた.

みんなさんげんきですか。

it has been a long time since my last entry.

i have a difficult time figuring out the blogger,

as i could not post some entries.

my blog look so dead~!

T_T

NEWS FLASH ABOUT MYSELF~!

1) Shanghai OIP

hai hai,

i went for Shanghai OIP already~!

the six weeks there,

i made new friends,

learn to be independent,

get sick,

laugh like idiot,

study,

watch conan...

everyday was filled with new excitement.

P.S. i did not miss home >.<

it's been one and half month since i came home,

and i really miss the apartment at Shanghai University that i have stayed in for 6 weeks.

it had become a "home" to me.

T_T

i also miss friends from other courses like

waiming mama who looks after us >.O

ah kuan who makes time go by faster through jokes

eliz who is very diligent

yi jun who is very mature

clarice and cynthia (hope i didn't spell wrongly) who bargain with me at qi pu

and many many more...

more pictures are uploaded in my facebook *wink*

2) Singapore Flyer.

ok ppl..

i finally go up that flyer.

it is really slow,

but frankly speaking,

i don't see much up there.

most of the time i am thinking how the flyer turn and how it is being supported.

3) IRAS trip

Went to IRAS tour a few days ago.

we just have a walk around the gallery,

and a ppt talk about IRAS.

i learn more about the tax system in singapore as well as it's history.

i like a gallery talk a lot,

coz the speaker is quite funny,

and the gallery is well-designed.

i will want to go back again as i didn't get to explore much due to time constraints.

the ppt talk is quite boring,

until the part where we have quiz.

it is very cool,

coz we have a remote control and we have to punch in our answers.

technology rocks~!

4) さようならせんせい

Mrs Neo, Ms. Yew and Mr. Bernard are leaving DMN all at the same time T_T

it's sad coz they are great principal and teachers.

it will never be the same without them...

i am glad that they see me through all the way to graduation.

i went for mrs. neo's farewell party.

the performance is not impressive,

but it is the thoughts that count.

pira took us tour around the new DMN campus.

it is not the same as the old one,

other than the new block and my beloved design block.

it is only at the design block i feel that "yes, i am in dmn".

we feel like we are pri sch kids going to dmn for the very first time,

everytime is new and amazing to us.

a lot happened after i came back from shanghai.

of course,

it is quite impossible to list down everything.

i felt that i have changed,

i also can't describe what changes i have made.

i feel lethargic most of the time,

especially during diplomas plus whereby hardly anything goes into my head.

i start having craving for weird things,

and start picking up interest on different things.

nevertheless,

わたしは　幸せ　です。

2009-07-26T22:05:00.001+08:00

I am sick~!
as in really sick~!
have...
H1N1 like illness.
haha.
>.<
Got 7 days MC until 2 Aug.
T_T

2009-07-14T20:17:00.004+08:00

Konichiwa~!

long long never blog liao,
and my blog is super dead.
i doubt anyone reading anyway.
haha.
anyway,
not going to write grandmother story again...

6 TOP UPDATES ABOUT MYSELF ^_^:

1) Common Test results...
IFA --> Remains unknown until this Friday coz tutor went for reservice...zzz
FMGT --> Disappointing. Don't even bother asking...
Audit --> Top the cohort with 47.5/50. In my oppinion, still not very good, but better than expectation. ^_^
EAA --> 83/100?? can't remember.. but is in the 80++ range. haha...

2) Completed and submitted Viewpoint project. huge relieve. i hope dun miss out anything...

3) Went ice skating with shine ^_^

4) I AM GOING TO SHANGHAI AGAIN~! this time round is 6 weeks. much much longer than last time. never expected to be able to go again, coz i thought most likely chance will be given to those who never went before. haha.. lucky i guess.... Start telling me what souvenirs you all want. First come first serve! ^_^

5) Lost my beloved wallet. T_T. Lost about $100++ cash, cashcard with $9++, VERY important thumbdrive, ATM card... That's all i can remember that are in the wallet. T_T super sad... $100++ is A LOT OF MONEY!!! >.<

6) I changed my handphone. Sony Erisson T707 (i think). haha. not that my old phone is totally spoilt, but it is not performing very well. In case it goes bonker on me in shanghai, i bought i new one just in case. the old one will be used as prepaid phone plus used for china sims card when i am in shanghai.

2009-06-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa mina-san!

it's so long since my last post.
anyway...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO...
TEDDRI~!
MUMMY~!
SHINE~!

many things happened,
but can't remember everything liao..
haha...
this is what happened if i don't blog.
CLAW project done and presented,
dunno how it goes,
but we tried our very best.
CT were over too.
didn't do very well for all the modules,
just hope at least a pass for all.
T_T
*cross fingers*
two weeks holidays are going to be over soon...
just 3 days left.
done quite a lot of stuffs this term break.
presented our audit e-learning presentation finally.
just hope we dun do too badly.
I&E is over for me too,
only left reflective journal and a report,
since the event was already held last friday.
the elderly are all so cute,
really have a great time there.
thanks for all the volunteers for helping out.
have project discussion for CSP viewpoint project & EAA XBRL,
not going very smoothly,
but did something at least.
hope we can solve all the problems soon.

the most fun thing during this term break is the BBQ cum Chalet.
haha..
it was originally planned to just held the BBQ,
but somehow we anticipated that it will end late,
so we booked a chalet too.
and..
thanks god we did.
haha.
the BBQ was fun,
but the BBQ pit was super far from the chalet,
so we have to walk really long.
it is tiring,
but great!
haha.
we BBQ a lot of stuffs that we never tried before,
and it all turns out great and delicious.
we played word guessing game too.
i think i am the best guesser,
but a really bad actor.
haha.
the whole BBQ ended around 12 plus midnight,
after packing and walking,
i guess we only reached chalet around 1am plus.
took shower,
and after that played stacko, word-chain, monopoly, and poker.
luckily i didn't lose even once in stacko,
as the forfeit is "truth or dare".
the most funny dare was when we made shine go out of the room from the back door,
walk around the chalet,
then back through the front.
P.S. shine has to climb through the window and not the front door.
it is so funny.
originally we wanted to made shine say "i love you" to stranger outside.
i am the greatest loser for monopoly.
i never win monopoly..
T_T
poker was not much luck for me too.
originally want to play with money,
but in the end also never.
me, piggy, and qianwen last the latest.
we three slept at 6.30am.
haha.
we also have a fun time stripping jiayue and shine too.
coz they very "sexy"
we all woke up at 11am then check out.
went to eat branch at mcdonalds.
weather very hot,
if not we still want go cycling or continue the poker.
haha.
after i reached home,
originally want to sleep de,
but polar suddenly said want come my house.
haha.
in the end,
never sleep until midnight.
super tired,
plus the next day still have project discussion with EAA gangs.

2009-06-02T11:21:00.006+08:00

Some Outdated Photos:

At Sakae Sushi

Post-Trip BBQ

Lunch @ Cathay Orchard

Embarrassing moments

Criminal Photos????

With Dri @ CS

Random photos

2009-06-02T09:59:00.003+08:00

back to blog
^_^
KLOMP was alright,
have a great time there,
Love D5.
*(^0^)*
You guys did a great job~!
CLAW project was far from completion.
i finally get to touch flash in shine's lappy,
and i finally understand how to create flash.
wohoo~~!
i guess i am kinda good with computers (BHBing)
haha...
i will be staying up tonight to complete the whole flash,
hope i can finish on time.
*pray*
but i really dun like this lor..
last semester stay up to do webpage design and access,
this sem stay up to do flash.
this should be a team effort instead of one person staying up late to do...
but we ran out of time.
everyone have their own commitment and stuffs.

now in lecture.
i alone..
so sad.
both piggy and shine not here.
lecture is a total waste time.
spent one whole hour and still counting,
to fix the login problem.
i mean,
just go on with the lecture lar,
the login problem can be fix the next time mah,
like that waste everyone time,
and we don't earn anything.

throughout this 1 year plus in poly,
i finally come to one daring resolution.
there is a huge posibility that i might go solo on the selection of class next semester.
firstly,
i don't want to be working with the same people throughout my whole 3 years in poly.
secondly,
i know everyone wants to do well,
but i am sick and tired of having to keep repeating and explaining.
i think it is always best to check out yourself and try to be more attentive.
i might be able to tolerate it once in a while,
but when the frequency increase,
it gets quite irritating.
besides,
it really slow down the learning and working process.

2009-05-24T17:46:00.002+08:00

My phone gone crazy.
need to change a new phone,
but have to wait until the contract ends...
which is like long long long time later.
dunno if my phone can last till then...
*prays*

watch a lot of movies and drama recently.
haha.
dunno what's wrong with me...
watched "Taken" with pearl,
"Angel & Demon" with polar and gangs,
watch "Attention Please",
"1 litre of tears",
"shopping heros",
and a lot more.
many of the drama are rewatched,
so i don't really want rewrite so many.
haha...

i wouldn't be at home for the next three days.
will only be back home on wednesday night...
will miss my lappy,
since i finally decided not to bring it there,
coz i don't think i have the mood or time to do homework anyway.
e-learning week this coming week,
but still need to go to school for 4 days..
sianz...
common test coming soon...
hope i don't do too badly.
>.<

2009-05-18T08:35:00.002+08:00

I rewatch the whole 11 episode of 1 litre of tears this morning.
didn't sleep whole night,
just keep watching.
didn't know this is the which time i watch this show,
but no matter how many times i watch,
i will cry to every eipsode,
especially from episode 3 onwards.
whenever i am feeling down,
or upset,
i will start watching this.
i will look at how aya overcome all the problems she faced in her life,
and how use her courage to face her terminal disease.
i will think,
all my troubles and problems don't exist at all.
in fact,
it is nothing compared to what aya had faced.
i should stop grumbling,
stop complaining,
coz someone might be having a even harder time than me,
and they did not have the chance to complain.

To all the peeps who never watch or read 1 litre of tears before,
i strongly recommend this drama.
it is adopted from a real life story,
a girl called Aya,
and story was from her diary.

2009-05-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

these few days are long day for me,
fly here fly there de.
haha.
went out with pearl,
one night tour around supreme court,
eat sakae sushi,
a lot of things.
haha.
but i will only talk about this two days,
since it is still fresh in my memory,
the rest i forget most of the part le.
haha

-160509-
yesterday morning go school film for CLAW.
in the end,
everyone,
including me are late.
haha.
chit chat and slack very long before we start.
piggy help shine and me "smuggle" bubbletea and hotdog to the room,
coz me and shine hungry.
i going fatter lor,
all those irregular lifestyle and non-stop eating.
haha.
the librarian came up and tell us we need to register or something like that for filming and taking photos.
zzzz.
in my one year in NP,
i never heard or done something like that.
i don't anyone knows also.
we all just go,
and take the videos and photos lor.
after filming all the various parts,
we go to funan to get piggy's laptop.
she in the end never buy the acer we saw the other day,
instead,
she choose a lenovo lappy.
the design nice and good lar,
but a bit heavy.
for me,
i know it is important to get a good processor and RAM all those,
but i think for a student,
weight is more important,
coz we will be carrying it around most of the time.
so i think just an average specs will be fine with me,
don't have to be too good.
i learnt my lesson from my own laptop le.
so if i am the one buying this time,
i will go for the acer one,
coz at least it is slightly lighter.
but,
it's her decision,
afterall she is the one using it.
ate pastamania for lunch until super full,
add lots of my favour cheese,
think i got even fatter after eating all those.
haha.
after that,
went back Tampines than went to geok shan house.
she is sleeping when i reach.
played sims for a while when she eating dinner.
after that,
she helped me to facial,
or rather,
i be her white mice for facial practice.
then she practice manicure on me.
she needs to work on her painting skills.
haha.
she even do until i start bleeding lor,
now my injured finger still hurts a little lor.
went home super late lor,
my mum have to end up fetching me.

-170509-
today went to YMCA.
meet polar and peeps at my hse bus-stop.
end up everyone overslept.
haha.
went to interchange meet puay suan.
she helped me collected 2 bags of recycable.
thanks a lot puay suan.
for waking up so early to pass me those stuffs,
and for helping to collect.
everyone i asked,
thow away liao.
took mrt to dhoby ghaut.
chit chatting session on the train.
i forget ez-link card at geok's hse,
and have to buy standard card.
the price a lot in difference lor.
walked to YMCA.
got 9 packets of instant noodles,
and 2kg to rice in all.
far from my expectation,
and i think we can do better if we start earlier,
and if my whole team will help.
only chen chian bought some papers.
although only one bag,
but at least she contributed.
thanks polar, chercher, and rach for begin free labour.
they don't have to do anything de,
but they helped me carry all those stuff over.
if not because of them,
i might have to take cab alone.
haha.
after that,
because all of us never have breakfast yet,
went to KFC to eat.
when we reach there,
it is still the breakfast menu,
so we sit down and wait until lunch starts.
haha.
after that,
we go cathay watch movie.
ticket super expensive lor.
$10/ticket.
watch Angel & Demon.
the movie very nice.
after that,
went to meet polar's parents.
walk walk here,
walk walk there.
then polar's parents drive us back.
so nice of them lor.
although the direction different,
they took a u-turn and drive us back.
haha.
Polar said maybe can ask her parents to donate some food supplies for my I&E,
but not because they want to,
but because of me,
"kao wo mian zi" in chinese.
but it is not confirmed.
but thanks polar,
for offering.
it meant a lot.
walked to geok's hse after that to take back me ez-link card.
went to sleep straight after i reach home.
think too tired le.

2009-05-14T00:54:00.001+08:00

TO ALL NP LEVEL 2.2 STUDENTS:

ANYONE GOING TO THE 6 WEEKS SHANGHAI IMMERSION PROGRAMME & LOOKING FOR A ROOM MATE, TAG ME HERE!!

2009-05-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

Ok peeps,
i AM quitting maple,
for real this time,
ok...
i really think no point for me to continue.
my level remained there like.. FOREVER...
and i can't really continue unless 120.
and polar doesn't seem to have time for me,
when her level is like up up up everytime i online.
oh well...................
i think she put others first bah....
till then,
i really don't see a point for going online.
there is nothing i can do now even if i online.

2009-05-12T00:18:00.002+08:00

I feel like i am fed up with almost everyone around me.
or rather,
i feel that i am making everyone angry with me instead.
i really need someone to talk to,
but i can't seem to find one.
how pathetic can i get...

i feel like just going MIAing for a period of time.

but i don't think i even have the chance to do that...

2009-05-12T00:13:00.001+08:00

Your Stress Level is: 74%

You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now.

Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out.

Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only way you'll get through the bad times.

I also wish i can relax.
but somehow i just cannot relax myself...

2009-05-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

I have a really bad day today.
I don't have enough of sleep,
my whole body ache like crazy,
and i don't have appedite for almost the whole day.
Meeting with Mr. Teo is really bad since i don't really know what the rest of the group members are planning.
i can only sit there as a figurehead leader.
i don't even know what is the point of me being there.
"You know who" talk the most as usual.
Went to old folks home after that.
it is raining,
and "you know who" whom had been there before,
and recommended that place,
got us lost.
and we practically walked in circles in the rain for quite some time.
The place is really super small,
and there is no oven.
so we have to strike out cookie making.
luckily i didn't listen and calculate all those ingredients,
all else all effort will go to waste.
i already ask "you know who" to check on the oven,
but i guess he/she forgotten.
we also didn't have ANY food supplies donator.
I suggested the YMCA LOOOOOONG TIME AGO,
but "YOU NO WHO" INSISTED ON LOOKING FOR DONATOR.
and in the what,
YMCA ending,
but NO DONATOR.
HOW??
DON'T ASK ME!
WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GET SO MANY PAPERS AND OLD CLOTHINGS IN SUCH SHORT TIME FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
I SAID I WILL ASK MY FRIENDS DURING MEETING,
BUT YOU THINK MY FRIENDS SO FREE MEH,
PLUS YOU THINK THEY CAN PRODUCE ENOUGH MEH?
after that went home.
have a massive headache,
maybe because my clothes and hair are kinda damp,
and i went to air-con MRT for quite long.
stand throughout the ride.
legs almost break.
went home saw Mr. Ng email.
wanted to sms piggy they all,
but i think they out in the afternoon,
so wait until evening then sms.
but i saw piggy's message from afternoon (didn't realise it),
saying she want to go for other lecture slot instead of tmr.
but there is no other slot.
smsed shine to ask they all online so can plan for the project as well as about tmr.
but none of them are available.
one outside,
one laptop got problem.
Just 2 weeks left till submission ,
and we never do anything yet.
of course i will be worried lar.
20% leh,
you think small project ah.
but i also cannot blame them lar,
need to wait teacher email,
and the online discussion is VERY impromptu.
it is not that i everytime want to tell them last minute,
but i will kinda "expect" them to be available too,
since normal the day i decided is like one day before the tutorial or submission,
and since our time table are the same,
i thought it will be easier to plan our time.
and it is normally last minute that i decided to do something,
not that i do it on purpose.
maybe i should really do some self-reflection.
maybe my way of doing makes people feels uncomfortable.
i felt like my brain cells are dying slowly as the days go by.
one problem not settle,
another came.
until now i still cannot find a room mate for the trip.
i really want to go for the trip,
coz looking at the situation now this sem,
i will really collapse next semester when 7 modules' project come together.
i will really go jump down the building.
i don't think i can handle anymore pressure.
many thinks i am doing a good job handling,
but only i myself knows that i am doing a lousy job.
it is not as easy as doing prior revision to understand what the lecturer is talking about.
i really need to sit down and listen,
only then i will only understand 30% of what he/she is saying,
and 10% left the next day.
i admit that i am really bad at studies,
i am not smart either.
so i really need that 2 modules exemption.
furthermore,
i really don't want to reach home so late anymore.
it is about normal to reach home at 7pm or even later each day,
10pm on thursday.
i want my life back,
even if there are only 6 more hours,
i will still appreciate it,
coz it means 6 more hours of rest.
sometime i really wonders if i should get any sleeping pills,
since i really can't sleep at night,
even though i might not have slept the previous night.
maybe i simply stress myself too much,
and people thinks that is totally unnecessary.
maybe i am a perfectionist,
and makes people cannot stand me.
i feel that i should stop thinking about school work,
and get previous kind of life back...
those finding room mate,
i realised that i didn't have that many friends.
maybe i should stop sticking to my old groups,
and seek out for other friends.
coz these friends will not always be available for me,
like in this situation.
i am starting to wonder,
am i not outspoken enough?
or do i simply looks "proud" like what many tell me.
but my facial expression is not something i can change.
it is my natuaral look.
i tried to change it,
but the response is always the same.
What should i do???

2009-05-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

ok,
once again,
i am being ignored.
i tell EVERYONE to send me their write up to keep me informed and so i can write out a proposal.
HOWEVER,
WHO CARES ABOUT ME???
NO ONE!
i repeat,
NO ONE!
ok,
maybe except Yisheng.
he at least send me an email to tell me about his progress.
BUT WHAT DID THE REST DO???
I AM THE ONE WHO ASK FOR PROGRESS,
BUT EVERYONE EMAILED THAT "YOU KNOW WHO" INSTEAD.
i am totally fed up!
and yet again,
he/she produced a totally crappy itininary and called that stuff a "PROPOSAL".
please lar,
i am the group leader,
i am supposed to be the most up-to-date.
HOWEVER,
i am the most blur one during the meeting with teacher.
IF I AM GOING TO BE DIS-REGARD AS A GROUP LEADER,
I MIGHT AS WELL DROP MY TITLE,
AND STOP BEING A FIGURE-HEAD.
i have enough of all these lar.
when you all don't want to do something thing,
then will say "you are the group leader, so you should do".
ONLY DURING THAT TIME YOU ALL WILL REMEMBER LAR~!
I REALLY HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL THESE LAR!
IF YOU ALL ARE GOING TO KEEP ME INVISIBLE,
THEN DON'T EXPECT ME TO DO ANYTHING!
IF YOU ALL ONLY LISTEN TO "YOU KNOW WHO",
THEN I WILL GLADLY KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT,
AND FOLLOW HIS/HER LEAD.
BUT,
DON'T LATER SAY I NEVER DO ANYTHING AS A LEADER.
COZ YOU ALL NEVER LET ME TRY.

2009-05-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

I realised that i am really an indecisive person.
i want to go,
but i don't know whether i should go or not.
i know that if i don't go,
i will kinda regret it later,
when all the homework and projects start to pile up.
however,
i really don't want to go alone like last time,
i feel like an extra no matter which group i join into.
finally there are some friends who want to go,
but they all have partners.
what should i do?
it is really not easy to find another person to go with me.
either they do not take that module next sem or they not interested,
or they already have someone.
To go or not to go????
Go, i will feel weird and lonely like last time.
don't go, i might regret...
i know i have been pondering over the same question over the past few days,
and many of the people around me have already analyze for me,
thanks a lot peeps.
but!!
i still cannot decide.
i don't want to just get together with someone i am not so close to again.
T_T
Dilemma...
GOSH~!!!

2009-05-07T22:27:00.001+08:00

Konichiwa~!

school work are stacking high.
so many to do,
so little time~~~

2009-05-07T22:21:00.003+08:00

i am really irritated by you ok!
cannot stand it anymore.
every tutorial you talk non stop,
if what you ask or said is important or relevant,
i am fine with it.
however,
i cannot stand when you talk crap.
and,
you think you are being funny,
but i think you are being sacrastic and rude.
i also don't like your attitute in your work.
i have never group with you before,
but i can clearly see your lousy attitute in group work.
you put people to work,
and you play psp at one corner.
what is this?
you are the group leader somemore.
are you sure you can lead?
i am totally shocked when you volunteered to be the module rep.
i really doubt you can do a good job,
when you failed to even assign the very first tutorial after you are "chosen".
don't blame the teacher for not sending the contact list,
you can see us every single day.
you keep saying people will not want to group with you,
but did you even try to ask them,
or try to blend in?
you always want to work with that someone,
and you said you preferred pair work.
you think you so great ah,
people need 4 people to do,
you just 2 person can do it?

2009-05-06T13:31:00.002+08:00

I might not be a perfect leader,
but i don't need you to keep reminding me.
If you want to be leader so much,
and you think you can do a better job than me,
when not write yourself as the team leader right at the beginning?
i didn't want to be leader to begin with.
you are the one who put my name down without my consent.
now i am the leader,
fine!
but you keep dominating all meetings,
do all the allocation of work,
plan all the meetings yourself,
type everything out yourself,
and you said "like this i looks like the leader".
are you trying to criticize me?
or are you trying to be sacastic?
it is not that i don't want to do anything,
but you always do things your way,
and everyone followed you.
when there is a majority,
does my words make any difference?
i want to do my job,
but you always snatch it,
and in the end i have nothing to do.
i already said i want a delay in the meeting coz i have something more important to do.
HOWEVER,
you insisted on having it as planned,
and decided on the idea yourself,
without asking me.
you even called teacher and ask him,
so there is like no way for me to rebuke on the idea.
but seriously,
i don't like the idea at all.
it is too common and lame.
i want to collect supplies through YMCA,
but you keep insisting it is taking up time,
and you want to find suppliers.
i mean,
who will want to supply things free to a nobody,
without any plans whatsoever!
my ways might require a lot of manpower,
but at least it is a guaranteed workable plan.
what if you cannot find supplier on time?
are you going to put the blame on me?
you keep insisting on the catering.
i mean,
why should we provide catering for the volunteers when we do not even have the budget?
for goodness sake,
who on earth will sponsor us?
you throw the job of looking for sponsors and suppliers to others,
why not you do it yourself since you are so confidence?
i am not going to pay a single cent!
you always say,
"i last time do this do that,
so now we should do this do that".
but did you care what i think?
i think your idea is totally lousy,
not only there is a lot of preparation work,
there is lots of work on the actual day,
and there is no fun at all.
frankly speaking,
if i am not involve in this thing,
i wouldn't participate even if there are like 1000 CCA points.
you want lots of event,
but you think it is easy ah?
giving all the work to people,
and all you do is call the place you went to last time.
you think you do a lot is it?
i want to write a full proposal for teacher and suppliers or sponsor in case they need it,
you ask me what the hell do i need to do it,
and tell me you have done it.
!@#$%^&@#$%^&@#$%^& lar
that one page thing that you send me is a proposal???
go learn what is a proposal lar.
there is nothing inside that looks like a proposal.
everything i do you think is no good,
then you think you are so good?
if i can choose again,
i will not team with you all.
the rest of the team just go blinding with you,
i not at all enthu about this team,
to be frank with you!
i don't care if you reading this or not,
i don't care!

2009-04-26T15:11:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa~!

SLACK SLACK SLACK.
I hate the weather.
1 moment i am sweating like crazy,
the next moment it is raining~!
i have been "bunning" up my hair at home for the past few days,
but i still have to bathe like 3 times everyday.
super lousy weather.
>.<

2009-04-25T14:20:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa~!

A really hectic first week of school just ended.
completed and presented trip project at last.
after many nights of video making and editing,
finally can have a good night sleep.
although i think that the videos i did are not up to standard,
but i tried my best.
the presentation is ok bah,
not much confidence in doing well,
coz i keep looking at the script,
unlike amanda and diana whom seated beside me.
T_T
my individual 10% sure gone de.
the whole presentation ended later than expected,
coz previous groups ended late too.
haha.
now what's left of the shanghai trip is individual reflection and post trip survey.
had post trip BBQ last night.
not bad lar,
have quite a lot of fun.
everyone got messy coz of the shaving cream, egg, flour, water, toufu.
haha.
i think i am one of the cleaner one.
i missed francis's birthday bash,
coz me and sheramin need go off first.
our house so far away lor,
plus the school is really dark at night.
i wouldn't want go BBQ unless sheramin going.
didn't eat a lot of the food,
coz i got quite full after eating just a bit.
after that,
josey and company go take picture at playground,
i just walk here walk there look at them.
haha.
i guess the BBQ marks a full stop for the shanghai/wuxi trip,
as well as the last gathering all 32 of us get together.
we might meet again next time,
but definitely not as one whole group like that.
i will miss all of you~
>.<

first week of this semester is definitely more busy than last year.
MONDAY----
I&E: Event management: formed our group. seriously, i forget who is in my group le, coz got two of the group member i dunno de. i think i will get to know them again on monday. need to think of some ideas of activity to execute. any idea anyone? haha...

TUESDAY----
Company Law: lecture was quite alright, but a lot of things from Business Law i forget le, so i think better revise again. T_T I really bad at law. HELP ME!!

Entreprise Accounting Application: really boring module. download Accpac for the whole 2 hours until the whole school server jammed. zzzz in the end i didn't manage to download it. wasted 2 hours sia.

WEDNESDAY----
Entreprise Accounting Application: FINALLY! downloaded Accpac. Formed project group. most of them group with their own cliques. so we group with another group of 3s. although lecturer dun want 6 in a group, but no choice, the other ppl have groups le.

Financial Management: lecture is boring.

THURSDAY----
Audit: lecture was ok, but a bit boring also.

Diploma Plus, Additional Mathematics: first lesson was quite easy. just learn function and linear equations, which i had already learnt in secondary school. so it is just a recap for me. but i am sure the lessons in the future will not be as easy as the first one. haha.

FRIDAY----
Intermediate Financial Accounting: easy topic, but very boring also. haha.

2009-04-16T20:46:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa~!

sick sick sick~
condition getting worst as days go by.
T_T
cough like crazy this morning.
go see doctor in the afternoon.
fever again.
~.~
wait at the clinic for almost 4 hrs.
this is the opportunity cost incurred by going to the polyclinic.
but no choice,
cheaper at the polyclinic.
the doctor gave me tons of medicine.
sianz.
I HATE TO EAT MEDICINE!!!

2009-04-13T13:36:00.001+08:00

Konichiwa~

in school now.
sian sian sian...
chit chat most of the time.
zzzz
don't think can finish soon.
T_T
they are all arguing now,
only amanda is concentrating.
bless my ears~
>.<

2009-04-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

Tags reply:
sherr: thanks a lot. i have already recover 80% ^_^

2009-04-12T22:19:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa~!

fever gone down for good now,
just non stop coughing...
i am someone who don't like see doctor,
don't like eat medicine,
like to eat trash,
and get sick easily.
hence,
everytime i fall sick,
i take a long time to recover.
thanks god this time round is quite fast,
coz i decided for once to be a good girl,
and swollow down all the panadol my mum gave me.
fever gone within two days is a miracle to me le.
haha.
after all,
i slept almost the whole of yesterday.
haha.
went to book sales at expo today.
didn't buy much coz i still don't feel like reading now.
haha.
missed sg food,
so quickly get back tampines to buy food.
can't eat all my favourite fried chicken, blah blah blah...
T_T
went to popular too,
missed my favourite books...
for those who know me for a long time,
should know what book i am referring to..
MUAHAHA.
i still in process of collecting all those pictures taken in Shanghai,
after all had been consolated,
i will post a detail "journal" on the trip.
haha..
till then...
TATA~
*^_^*

P.S. Jie, stop doubting my relationship with k. i totally have no feelings towards him that way. pure friendship, ok. i don't want what happened in the past to affect our trio relationship. especially after i return from shanghai, i understood more about myself, i know what i am looking for.

2009-04-11T21:27:00.003+08:00

Tags reply:
Richard: zzzzzzzzzzz

Michelle: OMG? REALLY? what a coincidence. haha~ i thought you knew i am in NP?? That time i tag you in your blog and i remembered telling you. i only knew bingxian recently, during the shanghai study trip. his name and my name quite identical. Ng Bing Xian, then i Ng Xin Xian. haha. yeah, the whole quite small. i heard from pearl say you want to return my huan zhu ge ge VCD. you can either pass to pearl, or we plan a time to pass me in school. ^_^

2009-04-11T20:54:00.004+08:00

Konichiwa~!

I am back in Sg.
i arrived yesterday actually,
but i am really sick and tired,
so i never post.
i am running a fever of 38.6 degree.
*faint*
never realise i have a fever even though i know i sick already,
coz i have sore throat and cough.
it was until my mum told me i felt hot when she touched my hand,
then i realised i have a fever.
my left ear pain again when landing.
i kept massaging it, swallowing saliva, and chewing on sweets to make it feel better,
but none of them works on me.
T_T
after landing,
i felt dizzy and my legs are numb.
to make things worst,
my ear still pain.
X_X
bought my uncle's and mum's wine and beer.
quite expensive,
but i don't really care,
since they are paying for it.
the funny part is that the cashier keep calculating my age.
she even ask me for my adult passport.
i tell her that IS my passport,
and i dun think that there is a difference between adult and teenage passport.
she keep calculate my age using the calculator,
and checking my birthday.
zzzzz
waste me time.
i waved to my mum a few times before getting my luggage,
but all the time she never see me.
after that in cab,
i asked her,
she said she saw a girl wearing my clothes,
but never realised it was me.
=_=
she said she was looking for girl wearing red shirt.
zzzz
the whole trip was full of emotions for me.
i have happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment, anxious, excitement, and many more.
i heard many said they will choose not to go for the trip if they can choose again.
but if i stop and think back,
although the whole trip was not totally happy one,
but it is a great learning experience.
i learn about different types of people,
different personalities of people,
different culture,
ways of bargaining,
and many more.
if i can choose again,
i will still go for the trip.
that's all for now.
i will post more details about the trip,
after i load all my pictures into the computer,
and got all the photos from other people,
coz most of the group pictures are not with me.

2009-03-30T17:41:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa~

decided to post today,
since i will not be posting again for the rest few weeks.
i got most of my trip things ready.
just a bit more to buy.
haven't pack my luggage yet,
since i will be unpacking the old luggage and repack everything into my new luggage.
the new luggage is a bit too big.
but too big is always better than too small.
can put souvenirs too.
haha.
went to withdraw a bottle of blood today.
almost cried again in the clinic.
what can i do?
i am just afraid of needles.
the doctor want to give me 2 more jabs,
but i die die also dun want.
so he also cannot do anything.

need to go harbour front tmr.
originally dri can go with me de,
but i somehow agitated her a bit.
i know is my fault lar,
keep calling her "noob" and all.
maybe i am just a bit tired due to loss of blood (coz my blood doesn't stop flowing for very long), and i am having slight fever now so a bit bad mood also.
and i was kinda irritated by how she just let ppl do as they want,
do as they like.
i hope that she could think more for herself too.
i know that she cannot use comp for as long as she wants,
so everytime is precious.
i am angry to see how she agreed to let some ppl waste her time away.
i know that she is kind-hearted,
and doesn't reject ppl.
but she should have a firm stand.
but i guess i was a bit too harsh.
sorry dri.
you know i dun mean anything bad.
originally tmr might be the last day dri will see me until dunno when,
coz i will be rushing to do the project for the trip,
and after that school reopen,
and my time table this semester is really lousy.

i guess,
now i have to go harbour front myself le.
i dun know the direction.
just hope i dun get lost.
haha.
cross-fingers.

I will be posting pictures from the study trip once i am free.
until then...

2009-03-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa~

Another month passed so quickly.
regrettably,
i have to say goodbye to BAOC 09.
Only joined them for first preparation,
but i can feel that it will be a great OC.
Reflecting now,
what have i done in these few weeks of holiday?
or rather,
what had i done in this whole year.
frankly speaking,
i cannot think of anything.
maybe because i spent most of the time doing something useless,
instead of investing my time on something meaningful.
results are out today.
i ask myself,
why did i score this kind of grade?
why didn't i study harder?
why didn't i put in more effort?
in nicer term,
i lack of motivation.
put it in layman term,
i am simpily lazy.
looking at my GPA,
not meeting my expection,
i felt disappointed,
angry with myself.
but all these had been done,
and there is no way to twist the fact.
all i can do it look forward,
and make sure i don't make the same mistake again.

Putting all those history aside,
it is time to appreciate the present,
and look forward for the future.
I want to thanks TA29 AY08/09 Sem.2
Although time together was short,
but you guys showed me how united people can be.
although it is hard for me to "blend" in,
but i appreciated the time we had together.

TA29 AY08/09 Sem. 2

I will be leaving for Shanghai study trip shortly.

my group has been assigned to LSC Consultant Management.

This company is "alien" to me.

i have no idea what to expect for.

After the group research on the company,

i understand more about the company structure and services.

the toughest part is,

we have to think of questions to ask during the trip.

we manage to pull through somehow,

thanks to the team's effort.

only one question is contributed by me though T_T

sorry peeps.

Study Trip Group.
Clockwise: Bing Xian, Gary, Diana, Yi Mei, Xin Xian, Amanda

I will be leaving on 1 April.

Quite a weird date to travel right?

haha...

don't worry.

it is not an April Fools Day joke.

flight will take off at 10.10am,

and have to reach the airport by 8am.

anyone want to send me off?

haha.

I will be back on 10 April,

estimate timing 9.50pm.

i heard it will be freezing there.

so will be going to get some sweater soon.

if not,

i am more or less ready.

haha.

Anyone want any souveniers?

ok,

now is just something random.

teddri send me these photos yesterday,

so i just post it up.

can't remember when i took it though.

haha.

the cushion we hugging is supposed to be a set.

Me and teddri's sis

2009-02-28T11:53:00.005+08:00

Konichiwa~!

EXAMS OVER~
PROJECTS OVER~
PRESENTATIONS OVER~
what's leftover?
FUN~!
haha...

finally have time and mood to post my blog.
i didn't do very well for this exam.
all the papers never finish.
die die die.
i already prepared for the worst le.

oh well~~~
all had past...
now for something more relxing~

PICTURES TAKEN DURING CNY EVE

Shine laying on my bed
Shine with my "mouse"

Doesn't she look like she is advertising for this fruit?
She always looks so happy while eating....

PICTURES TAKEN DURING MY BIRTHDAY

My birthday cake from Shine, Jiayue, Liwen & Piggy

It's STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE ^^

the "1" candle can play birthday song.

So kawaii~~~

They even go find garfield plates

haha~

My share of the b'dae cake ^^

B'dae present from Shine & Jiayue~

So Sweet...

Cannot see?

Enlarged version below~~

"HAPPY"~~

"BIRTHDAY"~~~

"TO YOU"~~~

It is made such that there are 18 characters,

coz i am 18 years old.

Sweet right?

box and cover all hand-made.

so are the bottles.

the things inside the bottles are coloured salt,

they dyed those salts.

so sweet lor.

there are 18 different colours.

meaningful present. *^_^*
B'dae card from LiWen

a cute b'dae present from Liwen.

Moooo~~~~~
A cute strawberry b'dae cake from Ace.
didn't expect this cake,
they even "trick" to me canteen 1 lor.
haha...
no wonder he ran off so fast that day after lesson.
thanks everyone for being with me.
haha...
Unrelevant to my b'dae.
but spot this cute kitten hiding under the car.
really cute.
but cannot take a nearer picture.
the kitten ran off after i tried to get closer.

2009-02-02T20:19:00.004+08:00

Thanks:

1) Shine
2) Piggy
3) Jiayue
4) Li Wen
5) My Mum
6) Carl
7) Geokshan
8) Ace
9) Yan Ying
10) Pearl
11) Rebacca
12) JieYing
13) Polar Puff
14) Teddri
15) Richard
16) Xiao Jas

and many more not named~~~

FOR WISHING ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!

*^_^*

2009-01-24T18:50:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

Busy busy weeks.............
AT LAST!
submitted the group website.
although not well done,
but it is good effort put in!
on the day of submission,
got problem with opening up the website,
in the end,
i have to u-turn back to school to see if the problem can be fixed.
in the end,
it was found out to be the format of the website.
no choice,
have to leave it as it is.
after go teddri house slack.
she treated me lunch and dinner coz i never eat anything that day.
i fell asleep at teddri house also,
while watching bleach,
coz really very tired,
a lot of nights never sleep well.
now only left database.
jiayous for the last stretch.

next week have 3 things due,
ITB database, MIEC article analysis, CATS report.
only MIEC analysis is considered done.
send to teacher to see and everything,
"good or not good" also gave some comments.
overall,
need some changes,
but her comments are positive.

Exam time table is out as well.
21 Feb first paper.
Last paper 27 Feb.
after that is PLAYTIME.

HAPPILY COUNTING DOWN...
1 Day ---> Reunion Dinner (Shine & Jiayue coming too *^_^*)
2 Days ---> Chinese New Year
9 Days ---> My birthday
21 Days---> Valentine's Day
34 Days---> Holiday

2009-01-24T18:39:00.003+08:00

Tags reply:
Geokshan: haiyo, why everytime change bloglink de. haha~ ok, link you again when i free.

shine: haha. yeah, many people say i a bit childish also. some even say i got deprived childhood. haha. but i feel that i quite ok bah, not that kiddy. some of the things i want are quite difficult to achieve. like going overseas, must wait until i earn some money and my mum give me back my passport. haha. I hope you get what you want also. especially "H.X". I still feel that you are more kiddy though. everytime look at you must pinch you de. haha. 很好捏! and, that time you sleep, even more like a child. hehe...

Jas: OMG~! really?? so sorry nv recognize you. i think because too long never see you le, that's why maybe never notice. sorry sorry. next time if see me again must come forward say hi mah. haha.

richard: =.=

Van: haha. post to let myself remember. i always forget my marks de. haha. and, one of my friend keep asking me to update. =.= Anyway, no trick. i never study. SERIOUS! especially ITB. i am like... "what to study ar???" then MIEC is pure lucky de, i all anyhow write, a lot of question no guarantee to get right. The real pro is Cherlynn.

Van: *0_0* no lar. that test is open book de. a lot of ppl score very well, not only me. Thanks anyway

2009-01-12T21:34:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

not supposed to be blogging now.
lots to do.
but wanna take a quick breather first.
haha.

updates on my common test marks:
MIEC --> 42.5/50
FFA --> 36.5/40
BSTATS --> 50/50
BCOMM --> 23/35
CATS --> 31.5/40
ITB --> 79/100

disappointed.
a lot of careless mistakes,
and so many "B"s grade.
T_T

Went to TP open house.
meet up with rach, cherlin, SP, jeremy, polar, teddri.
they burst 2 balloons right in front of me,
making me almost cry.
*0_0*
i scared of balloons mah.

went to SP & NP open house the next day.
not too bad lar...
after that went changi airport walk walk.
when time to go home,
me and teddri fight over whether to take bus or mrt.
in the end she gave in,
and we took mrt home.
sorry nandri,
but bus is really expensive for me.

today have BCOMM report writing test and BSTATS test.
both test are horribly done,
all dunno how to do.
i am sooooooooo dead.
T_T

2009-01-05T22:32:00.005+08:00

Konichiwa~!

today is the first day of school.
not too bad.
woke up early,
so reach the interchange early also.
haha.
saw cherlin queueing behind the line.
got a shock...
since she studying at TP,
why is she queueing for NP shuttle bus??
didn't have the chance to ask her also,
coz we were seperate too far apart.
the first bus was a mini bus.
first time took that bus,
as normally the small bus is the last bus for that morning.
oh well,
i think they made some change.
Today only have 2 modules,
BCOMMS & BSTATS.
Got back some marks...

BCOMMS
Oral interview - 3/5
Email writing - 12/20 <-- my language totally pulled my marks down T_T
Minutes of meeting - 8/10

Overall, quite happy with my marks.
better than i expected.
haha....

but the thing that made me go crazy is my BSTATS mark...
I GOT FULL MARKS!!!!
can't believe my eyes in the beginning...
totally unreal.

2008-12-31T22:29:00.002+08:00

新年はおめでどぅごぢぃます!

Many happy returns~~~~
Many happiness~~~~
Many dreams come true~~~~

2008-12-31T14:31:00.003+08:00

Took a few personality quizzes.
dunno how accurate are they.
haha~~~

You Are Christmas

More than most people, you are able to find magic in life's small moments.

Traditions mean a lot to you, and you tend to be quite nostalgic.

You are a giving, kind person who really understands the true meaning of holidays.

You inspire others to be as altruistic and caring as you are.

What makes you celebrate: Tradition and a generous spirit

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The storyteller. You like to recount memories with everyone.

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: Give a gift to everyone you know

2008-12-31T14:26:00.001+08:00

Your EQ is 127

You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content. You live your life well.

Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.

You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.

You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things. When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better.

2008-12-31T14:10:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

feeling rather down yesterday.
so went out walk walk,
or else i think i will just explode at home.
go find shine at expo.
felt a lot better after talking to her and jiayue.
they always have to power to make me laugh.
haha.
went home quite early to rest.

today originally supposed to go out with polar later on de,
but polar going count down with family.
oh well,
nvm...
can just stay at home watch videos.
haha.

2008-12-30T23:52:00.001+08:00

You Aren't In the Best Of Moods

While you aren't full on depressed, things aren't going your way.

You may be hurt, angry, frustrated... or all three.

Not to worry - you'll be feeling fine in no time.

2008-12-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa!

quite some unpleasant things happened during these few days...

I am rather disappointed with the progress of PBL2.
i am expecting to complete it ASAP,
however,
we are taking more time.
i wouldn't blame anyone,
as all of us do not know how to use the program or,
understand HTML.
However,
i am quite sick having only three people working hard,
while there are 5 people in the group.
where are the rest of the people?
one always work work work.
earning money is important,
but is school project of any less importance?
she is putting all our grades and marks at risk here.
plus,
she is the leader,
how could she not appear for all meetings?
we try to be more understanding,
and let her arrive later,
however,
she never appear.
one of the worst reason she gave was,
she got hang over from the previous night drinking.
is that even considered a proper reason?
i informed her about the meeting,
and the least she could do is not to drink until she could not wake up the next day.
The other member was sick throughout the whole holiday...
i could not believe it.
he just go MIAing,
and doesn't even bother to contact us.
don't reply SMS,
don't pick up calls.
day before the meeting,
tell me he is too tired to attend the meeting because of camps.
if he was really sick,
would he be able to go for camps?
if he is energetic enough to go camps,
why not the meeting?
you think we all not tired meh?
we all also sian.
you never even help us in one single thing,
not even come for one meeting.
I think my tolerance is wearing thin le.
but thanks to S.H and Y.Q,
for always supporting and coming for all meetings.
I know you guys also got sian of only three of us.

I got irritated by one particular person.
this is the first time i got irritated for real.
she always ask me out,
and i leave that day free for her.
however,
everytime on that day,
i ask her again,
she tell me cannot meet me le,
end up she go out with her other friends.
i mean,
stop it lar.
if you don't really mean to go out with me,
then don't ask me.
my time is equally precious as other people.
one side you plan a date with me,
than on other place you go meet with other people.
is it fair for me?
once or twice still okay with me,
but you does that everytime.
you think i have nothing better to do is it?
i not 24/7 free de.
because i already have plan with you,
that's why other people ask me out i tell them cannot.
but now you just "forget" about it,
and just go out with other people.
worst still,
you didn't even tell me earlier that you want to go out with others,
i wait for you whole day,
then evening time then tell me cannot.
stop joking around lar.
everytime you need me,
i try to be available for you,
but this is how you treat me everytime.
I am not a substitute when you don't have anyone to accompany you,
then once you find someone else,
you can just ignore and forget me.
spare a thought for my feelings lar.
if you keep doing this to me,
you think i will still take your words seriously?
i don't have to mention name here,
but you know who you are if you are reading this.

2008-12-28T23:11:00.002+08:00

I took a brain quiz..
and this is the results...
I am a right-brained...
haha

Right-brained

Most right-brained people like you are flexible in many realms of their lives. Whether picking up on the nuances of musical concerto, appreciating the subtle details in a work of art, or seeing the world from a different perspective, right-brained people are creative, imaginative, and attuned to their surroundings. People probably see your thinking process as boundless, and that might translate to your physical surroundings as well. Some people think of you as messier than others. It's not that you're disorganized, it's just that you might use different systems to organize (by theme, by subject, by color). Straight alphabetization and rigidly ordered folders are not typical of right-brained behavior. You are also more intuitive than many. When it comes to reading literature, you probably prefer creative writing or fiction over nonfiction. And when it comes to doing math, you might find you enjoy geometry more than other forms like algebra.

2008-12-19T15:19:00.002+08:00

As promise,

photos taken on the "date" with pearl...

a cute sleigh at vivo

Chirstmas tree @ vivoChristmas tree at new york new york.
Pasta~~~ Yummy...

i can't remember the name of this dish. i think is teriyaki hawaii chicken or something...

Cheers to PEARL~~~~

She is gonna finish the whole mug herself, coz i too bloated.
And.... she is drank...
*She is drinking.....
Root BEER

2008-12-19T15:04:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

a new post at last.
i have time on my hand to post actually,
but simpily lazy.
haha.

I AM HAPPILY COUNTING DOWN...
6 DAYS ------- CHRISTMAS~~~
45 DAYS ------ BIRTHDAY~~~
X DAYS ------- CHINESE NEW YEAR~~~

Mr. K has been asking me what i want for my birthday.
then i always ask back "what you want to give me?"....
i mean,
he is so far away,
i don't think he can even give me one.
but oh well,
very nice of him.
Carl very bad,
keep scaring me things about Mr. K.
next time see her will definitely kill her.

anyway,
i haven't get christmas presents yet...
T_T
will try to get it ASAP.
so friends,
wait a little longer ar...

i finally wanted to get my PSP slim,
asked polar to follow me buy...
but,
polar said now the PSP price is inflating,
so in the end never go buy.
T_T

went out with Pearl last week.
went to vivo and downtown east.
some of the pictures taken will be posted later.
in the end i never buy anything...
T_T

2008-12-08T20:20:00.001+08:00

Konichiwa!

BSTATS common test over le...
YAY~~~
one down,
three more to go...
T_T
here comes the tougher modules....
o.O
not looking forward to ITB exam at all~~~

2008-12-08T20:10:00.004+08:00

a very unique christmas tree in front of BHG Bugis
Behold... Entering the entrance of Bugis Junction

I always like to see innocent children playing here...

Shine with her "baby"

Her leftover piece of chicken... had a hard time to get the waitress to take-away it

A classy christmas tree at BJ. Saw it again on TV a few days later after taking this pic

I was totally not prepared for this shot...talking away...

Hm... who are we imitating???

A normal shot...

The very first one we took. piggy got "cut off"

Dunno why i took this in the first place... maybe because the flow of water is upwards...

2008-12-04T14:47:00.001+08:00

Konichiwa!

slack slack slack...
i know now is not a good time to slack...
but...
oh well....
reading novels,
and more novels...
saw kenny's prom pictures...
their theme is "red"
but like my batch,
no one follow the theme.
haha~~~
ALL WEAR BLACK~~~

2008-12-04T14:33:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

My plans for the holiday:

1) Go sakae sushi ^_^

2) Go Sentosa =P

3) Go Ice Skating XD

4) Go get Christmas Presents ^^

5) Do Baking =D

6) Do ITB web page T_T

7) Look for MIEC related articles =S

8) Go K-Box \(^0^)/

9) Eating Spree :)

10) Hunt down books (^0^)v

GREAT WAYS TO HELP GDP GROWTH DURING RECESSION. HAHA~~~ *^_^*

2008-12-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

SO MANY THINGS TO DO,
BUT SO LITTLE TIME.

TO DO LIST:

1) Study for common test...
STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOTHING GET INTO MY HEAD
T_T

2) Prepare christmas presents for:
~Shine
~Piggy
~Carl & family
~Pearl
~Polar
~Dridri
~GeokGeok
~AND MANY MORE
OMG~~~~
Dunno what to get them.
X(

3) Do ITB webpage
dunno how to do.
confused....
=(

4) MIEC newspaper analyse.
NEED TO READ NEWSPAPER...
>.<

5) MYOB assignment
dunno how to operate MYOB software...
>.<

6) Hang out with friends

7) Clean the house

8) Do baking
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AND THE LIST GO ON...

2008-11-30T18:16:00.004+08:00

Konichiwa!

Just going to touch on some on the stuffs that happened,
and i still remembered.
events are not in order.
=P

1) Thought i am going to work for DMN prom night.
In the end......
NO!
T_T
so disappointed.
got dispatched to a D&D.
In charge of a muslim table.
first time doing muslim,
so dunno where to get the food,
in the end got "scolding" from a senior.
not my fault mah.
she is the one who pushed the muslim table to me.

2) Aunty Lianyue treated me and mum to Kallang Seafood,
when we went to visit her at her office.
one of her friend own kallang leisure park!
i mean it.....
same owner as Kallang Seafood.
of course,
we didn't eat seafood,
coz i am allegic to it.
but the food that we tried are nice~~~
=D

3) Completed my ITB proposal and presentation at last!!!
CELEBRATION!!! XD
After so many sleepless nights,
i got some decent rest~~~~
I am not very pleased with the end results,
as i felt that there are so many things that still can be improved,
but nevertheless,
GOOD JOB~~~
Thanks piggy and ace for staying up with me for so many nights.
T_T
Touched sia...
*^_^*
although we only got B+,
we did our best.
GANBATTE for the web design~~~
we can pull up the grade de

4) Presented CATS presentation.
although not very perfect,
a good job well done.
teacher "praised" my SCAMPERS design,
but i felt that it is not done well.
X(

5) Went to shine's house again.
Tong Tong is SOOOOOOOO cute.
*^_^*
but he is scary as well.
like to chase me around.
although i like him a lot,
but very scared of him.
dilema~~~~
hehe...

6) Went to hiking with piggy and shine.
^_^
i was late,
coz i got the time wrong.
thanks for waiting for me.
*^_^*
the whole hike i don't dare to look down or at the scenery.
i am scared of height~~~~
T_T
we saw a small green snake.
first time saw one out in the grass...
after the height we went to vivo to eat.
ate lamian and xiao long bao.
the food not too bad.
we all bloated after that.
went to dridri's house after that.
slacking in progess... ...
haha.
we played a traditional malay marble game.
as a first timer,
i kept winning dridri...
haha.
lucky i think...
went home after that.

7) went to book fair with mum.
bought a few books and stationaries.
saw the same mediacorp artist i mentioned in the last post.
coincidence i think.
haha.

B'dae girls this month:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIGGY~~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEOKGEOK~~~

2008-11-09T19:23:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

long time never post again.
getting more and more lazy to post.
even have the time also no mood.
haha.
days went by normally,
nothing much extraordinary.
projects are coming up one by one.
time are getting more packed,
just like last semester.
Just ended my oral presentation last week.
more nervous than other presentation.
was a bit sick that day.
starting of a flu.
after went home fever shot up to 39 degree.
but,
thanks god,
the presentation is over.
haha.
friday went to work in suntec.
first time working there.
met puay suan at city hall.
we were quite lost.
haha.
managed to find the place in the end.
we tried following all the aunties,
as we have no idea where to go.
worked at ballroom two.
a dinner organized by NHG.
as i am a first-timer,
i only in charge of drinks.
the captain originally tell me not to touch alchol,
but a lot of people requested for it,
so no choice,
have to serve them myself.
yesterday also go work.
work since morning 11am.
get a bit lost about where to go.
in the end finally found the place,
but i am late half hour.
main job is to clean up the used plates,
and place them in the kitchen.
after completing one station for the lunch,
immediately transfered to another station for tea break.
luckily i kinda get the hand of it.
after cleaning up,
and transporting all the things back to banquet office,
we have to report to east gallery,
where we have briefing on the Dinner & Dance.
i got lost again
=.=
sat with the agents instead of suntec staffs.
make a fool out of myself.
for the first time,
i am serving dishes,
and portioning the food.
i am supposed to split job with a aunty serving 3 tables,
but i was sick,
plus i not so strong,
the aunty have to serve 2 tables most of the time while i only serve one.
after picking up the rice dish,
i started to nosebleed,
for some reason,
so dashed to the toliet.
aunty have to serve all 3 tables.
i felt quite sorry for her,
coz she had worked since 7am.
one of the entaintainer is a mediacrop star.
but can't remember his name.
my legs go sore and numb and painful after the whole D&D.
after all,
i never sit down from morning 11am to night 11pm.
hardly able to walk.
as advised by puay suan,
i soaked my legs into the hot water,
and indeed,
felt quite better after that.
but,
i got more sick after all the work.
more running nose,
more fever,
and more coughing.
going no voice soon le.

2008-10-17T16:53:00.003+08:00

Tags reply:
Geokshan: i miss you too. but cannot go out too often le, since my semester started already.

Jas: haha. yeah. previously either no time or don't feel like posting. finally have the will le, so post everything in one shot. haha.

2008-10-17T16:45:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

forget to mention in the previous post.
i cut my hair at last.
not very short,
but at least i cut it.
did treatment as well,
because my hair got dried after the previous perm.
not going to perm liao,
think i more used to my straight hair.
haha.

yesterday decided to skip night class again.
i felt that it was not very helpful anyway.
the teacher send everyone an email today,
saying the attendence yesterday not good,
then might as well don't take the exam.
blah blah blah.
i not taking the exam anyway~~~
haha.
stayed in school yesterday until the library closed.
thanks shine and jiayue for accompanying me.
haha.
shine and me watched finish the movie that we had been watching for a long time.
didn't finish watching before because of lack of time and problem with the DVD player.
finally,
finish watching.
the movie is nice,
and funny for some parts.
shine read my blog.
she went "yeah~~~" almost all the way.
haha.

today traffic jam on the way to school.
reached there just in time for lecture.
the lecturer so happened to be the same teacher-in-charge for the wonderknots.
went home after the lecture.

2008-10-15T16:41:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa~!

It had been REALLY~~~ REALLY~~~ REALLY~~~long since my last post.
and i really mean LONG~~~
my blog looks really dead.
haha~~~
Finally,
i putted my heart to writing this post after so long.
a lot happened these few days.
i will start with the zoo trip mentioned in the previous post.
met shine and jiayue at ang mo kio mrt.
i saw a poster that indicated free shuttle bus will be provided,
so we went to take a look.
we bought the tickets from them,
and the tickets were super expensive.
but,
it was once in a while,
and i had not been there for so long.
talked and laughed a lot on the way there.
it felt so good to see shine and jiayue after so long.
we went to look at all the animals.
quite interesting~
watched performance by the elephants,
and got splashed all over.
haha.
we missed the performance by the monkeys though.
went for lunch at KFC.
i was feeling kinda weird,
because zoo is all about preserving animals,
yet we were eating chickens in the middle of the zoo.
after lunch,
we headed for the performance by the sea animals,
like penguins.
I LOVE PENGUIN-SAN~
they are sooooooooooo adorable!
we also saw REAL POLAR BEARS~~~
Polar AKA XH~
i saw your cousins.
haha~~~
i learnt a lot about the animals there.
for example,
polar bears actually have black skin,
that's why they don't look totally white.
it rained half way through our trip,
but didn't stop us from visiting all the cute animals~
we saw snakes, reptitles, bears, deers, kangaroos, zebras, monkeys, boars, buttleflies, bats, birds, tigers,... ... and many many more.
great experience.
never regret spenting those money.
reached home quite late,
and very tired as well.

last monday,
went out with teddri and cherlin.
supposed to meet at 11am,
but both of them overslept.
teddri only woke up when i called her at 11.20am when she haven't reached yet.
so i waited at the interchange alone.
i think wait until 12 plus.
went to have lunch first at long john,
since none of us ate anything yet.
after that went to bugis.
went to take a look at figurines and mangas.
after that,
went to look for rachel at novena.
ate ice cream there,
and she gave us extras.
so nice of her.
drank milk tea.
at night go cherlin's house to download maple into her laptop.
helped her train until level 8 before we leave.
so ended up reaching home really late.
luckily mum never scold.

last thursday,
decided to skip one of the night class.
however,
i did attend lesson.
only attend half way,
until the break.
then leave.
walked to orchard,
meeting pearl there.
i reached there early,
so walked around while waiting for her to end work.
talked to teddri over the phone until pearl ended work.
went to balcony for dinner.
her friends over there.
the food there quite nice.
took mrt back together after that.

last sunday,
went out with liwen, piggy and shine.
jiayue couldn't join us.
T_T
piggy and shine at bugis.
i was late due to the long queue while buying my concession.
so sorry.
after that took bus to little india,
then mrt to boon keen [i think i misspelt it] to meet liwen.
went to the restaurant liwen's friend recommended.
however,
it was under construction.
went to harbourfront for a change,
since piggy haven't been there before.
went to vivo.
dunno what to eat.
decided to take a look at No Signboard Seafood Restaurant.
the price there almost made all of us faint.
changed to a restaurant called "dian xiao er"
never heard of it,
and never ate there before.
however,
we got lost while looking for that restaurant.
ended up at the "build-a-bear workshop".
looked at how they make a bear.
cute clothes everywhere.
we somehow managed to find the restaurant.
the food there nice nice nice.
i ate until my allegic reacted.
my lips got swollen.
T_T
but i think it worth it somehow.
haha.
after that went to walk around.
wanted to buy matching tops,
but all so expensive.
went to mini-toons as well.
lots of cute stuffs there.
after that,
took mrt back home.

school so far was great.
little homework,
project haven't start yet.
yesterday have three hours break.
we went to the library with hong xiang.
watched parts from high school musical 2,
and alvin and the chipmunks.
although i watched before le,
but still find it very funny and cute.
haha.
today S&W,
me, liwen and shine all chose tennis,
while piggy in netball.
because piggy was late,
she couldn't change to tennis to join us.
kinda sad.
i met my CATS mates.
all new faces,
except liyan, who is my IAC mate.
haven't really get to meet and know my TA29 mates,
have to wait until next week.
although i am in a brand new class,
i believe i will make new friends soon,
and hope i can mix really well with them.
=D
but...
my lips are still swollen until today...
T_T

2008-09-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: yupz, i am fine le. thanks

2008-09-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

It has been more than a week since my last post.
nothing much happened recently.
got together with polar and teddri very often this week.
polar came over my house to play maple,
and we will go break fast with teddri together.
its been so long since the three of us get together.
a lot of catching up is done.
today polar tell me her maple account got hacked.
i am quite worried that mine will be hacked too.
i even talked to the hacker.
luckily i didn't give the hacker my password.
however,
i scared that the hacker will find a way somehow,
just like how he/she hacked teddri's account.
did monster carnival for the first time today.
not very efficient.
a lot of waiting.
i also died 3 times,
at the exact same place.
looking forward to tomorrow,
because going to the zoo with shine.
haha.

2008-09-20T07:21:00.005+08:00

Tags reply:
van: sorry. i really want to go out with you again these few days. but i really not in the mood now. hopefully we still have the same lecture next semester. can go out again after holiday, hopefully. if lecturers dun stuff us with projects~~~

2008-09-20T07:21:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa!

long time never post again.
not in the mood to do anything recently.
i think my depression going worst.
i think because it had been accumulated over time...
sorry if i have been rude, offensive or ignoring you.
i just need some time to think about things.
i trying to be nice and normal,
but sometime just cannot do it.
thanks to carl and k for the concern.
i will keep thinking about what you all said,
and get over the whole thing soon.
i try to find things to distract me,
but i not in the mood to read manga or watch anime.
tried playing maple,
but it did not work too well.
the only thing happened these few days is the self-select timetable.
i hoped that all four of us will be in the same class,
but only piggy same class as me.
i will miss shine a lot.
seriously...
she is kind of like my source of laughter.
really disappointed.
T_T

2008-09-16T11:08:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
Pearlyn: haha. i also not qualified teacher mah. just play for fun only. really have fun yesterday~ =P
Cherlynn: in the end decided not to go le. i dun want to go with my mum, not fun de. she all the rides dun want go, then i have to go play myself meh. i dun want lor. so next time go with friends. haha. finally decided on which timetable to choose. hope we all get it. i dun want to be separately from you all. so tmr come online at 8.30am like that? hopefully my internet dun have any problem. or else die...

2008-09-16T10:47:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa!

Sunday was kind of boring.
didnn't go out.
can't sleep at night.
think because too nervous of the results.
watch bamboo blade,
as recommended by teddri.

monday woke up quite early.
checked my result online.
the results were horrible.
tell my mum my results.
some things happened,
and got depressed after that.
whole morning in a very horrible mood.
went to meet pearl at 1pm.
reach there earlier,
because i really dun want to stay at home anymore.
after that go NTUC to buy groceries.
went back to my house after everything was bought.
pearl cooked the meal.
we cooked until super long.
by the time ready for meal,
i am already very hungry.

Food that we ate

after eating we all become super bloated.
after that i teached pearl piano.
played a few songs.
very long time never touch the piano le.
pearl leave around 7.30pm.
she followed me to CC first as i wanted to check out the gym and courses there.
after that went home.
Pearl really made me feel better~~~
thanks to polar also,
and teddri,
who show concern.
T_T

2008-09-13T21:29:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: steamboat also~~ haha. shine will definitely finish everything de, master of eating mah. haha. dun think i am changing course this time round. i going to try my best for the next semester and see how. if really feel that i am not suitable for this course, maybe that time then change bah. haha. i still want three of us to be classmates again. haha. btw, i think i make a mistake. we meeting on 16 Sept 24:00, 17 Sept 00:00. not 15 Sept. 15 Sept is result release. haha. sorry sorry~~ i really scared i don't do well leh~~~ btw, i seeking advise from you. my mum said want to go jenting. you think should go or not? over there fun not?

2008-09-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

yesterday have a weird and scary nightmare.
made me worried, terrified and depressed the whole morning.
felt much better again going out.
went teddri's house.
slack at her house.
watched anime.
download maple for her lappy.
go meet JT to collect testi.
walk briefly around the school.
only D&T block made me feel like i am in dmn.
go back to teddri's house after that.
watch anime while teddri go to sleep.
after teddri woke up,
accompanied me take bus back home.
wanted to go geylang together de,
but teddri going to grandmother's house.
continued to watch anime after reaching home.
haha.
teddri recommended some really cute animes.
midnight,
play maple with teddri.
yeah~~~
i join back maple.
haha.
but i kinda abandoned my high level character,
and recreate a new one.
haha.
teddri didn't play long,
coz brother nagging and screaming.
haha.
after that i went help collect firewood.

today woke up and saw mum at home.
surprised coz she said she going out today.
aunty sermoi came today also.
watch manga and anime today.

2008-09-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
pearlyn: awww.... so sad. i really wanted to celebrate your birthday this year... haha. nvm lor, since you have work. cannot help it. looking forward to monday~! you can play my piano free of charge. haha.

cherlynn: yeah, only thinking of changing. also dunno whether should or not. haha. btw, when shine comes back, we all going to eat seafood. you have to come along also hor~~~ really long time never see you le. haha. the date and time not fixed yet, but i think most likely will go with your time bah. since the rest of us seem quite free. haha

2008-09-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

started thinking about my future...
whether i should continue with my Accounting studies,
or i should change course while i still can.
in dilema~
thinking about a lot,
the money, the recognition, the job opportunities, and my interest.
i know for sure accounting is not my top choice if i am only looking into my interest.
what should i do???
going to have a talk with my mother again.
see if i can get a solution~~~

2008-09-10T19:09:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: Yeah. just got to contact her these two days. she smsed me first, or else i also dunno her number. i smsed with her using her China number. i will give you her number through MSN. we meeting on 15 Sept 24:00 or 16 Sept 00:00. see which one you prefer. haha.

Geokshan: up to you lor. since i also free. haha. but you no work that day ar? sorry i got STM, so cannto remember you say when have work... where you wanna go?

2008-09-10T16:37:00.002+08:00

saw this while blog hopping.
think will have a go.
haha.
but i think it is kinda untrue to certain extend...
but,
it is fun you all to judge~.
=P

What Ng xin xian Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.

You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.

You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

2008-09-10T16:20:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: February 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.

You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.

Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.

Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive.

Your strength: Your universal compassion

Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings

Your power color: Mauve

Your power symbol: Butterfly

Your power month: February

2008-09-09T20:58:00.001+08:00

Tags reply:
Geok Shan: Thanks a lot~ when you want to go out tell me again~~~ hahaha

2008-09-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

still feeling kinda sick today.
have fever yesterday.
now better le.
stare into the computer the whole day.
also don't know staring at what.
my mum came in,
ask me what i doing.
i also don't know what i doing.

have this funny conversation with Mr. K...
K: Kiara! you know, what people remember malaysia for?
X: Hm... dunno... what?
K: Malaysia~~~~ Truly Asia~~~
X: Oh~~~ so???
K: How about Singapore?
X: Hm... the food and scenery?
K: NO~!
X: ...
K: Singapore~~~ Truly Keh Poh~~~

Oh course,
no offence fellow singaporeans...
this is really just a joke.
he knows i am not feeling so good,
so he also think of some ways to cheer me up.
i really like talking to him,
also crack some stupid jokes.

another thing that cheer me up is...
talking with shine.
well,
didn't really talk,
but we smsed each other.
really miss shine!
hope that the day shine come back will come sooner.
promised to go eat seafood together after they come back.
of course,
i am allegic to seafood,
so cannot eat a lot.
but it is the bonding,
ok~~~

2008-09-08T12:29:00.001+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: well, not going. i never even sign up. sorry for replying so late. =P

2008-09-08T12:03:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

-040908-
watched more movies...
zathura, jumanji
haha.
got quite addicted to movies recently.
went for night class.
as usual,
the teacher talked super fast,
made me reluctant to write what she said le.
mum came find me after lesson.
went home together.

-050908-
watched movies again...
eragon, night at the museum...

-060908-
never sleep the whole night.
super sleepy.
went to meet geokgeok for dinner.
my house clock had something wrong,
slower by half hour.
that's why late.
met geokgeok at shaw.
she wanted to watch mirror,
but the show not yet in cinema,
plus it is M18.
haha.
took MRT to yishun,
since both of us never went there walk walk before.
nothing much to walk also.
only went northpoint.
went eat KFC.
eat until i bloated.
after that geokgeok go play arcade.
i just watch,
since i don't like to play arcade.
after that took bus 39 home.
waited very long for the bus,
since we missed the bus.
geokgeok started singing weirdly,
making the interchange sound haunted.
haha.
raining heavily.
mum came fetch me,
since i no umbrella.
when alighting from the bus,
my EZ-link card almost dropped into the drain.
luckily only dropped on the drain.
scary leh.
slept immediately after reaching home.
think because too tired le.

-070908-
woke up early today,
coz supposed to meet geokgeok at 8am at the interchange.
after getting ready,
she said she just woke up and wanted to meet later...
=.=
reached there 8.30am,
but she still late.
she bought something to eat on the MRT.
i didn't eat.
followed her to the staff entrance,
then go eat breakfast at mac.
super hungry at that time.
went to meet up with the PAL people.
not much people came as usual.
go sell near far-east at first.
i go into the hotel ask the person for envelope,
coz no bag or whatsoever to put the money.
changed location to wheelock.
better sales there somehow.
wanted to take a break plus lunch at wheelock,
but no indoor mac or anything.
so go back to shaw.
i just drank,
never eat.
after that,
went to ngee ann city sell.
over there have a lion dance competition.
sales there not so good.
after that we got tired,
so go rest.
got someone came ask me take survey.
after that,
don't feel like selling le,
so went back to shaw,
give them back the remaining stock.
after that,
went to kinokuniya read books.
no place to sit,
so soon later my legs ache le.
after that go walk around ngee ann city and shaw isetan.
got bored,
so go stand outside isetan wait for geokgeok.
the security guard kept looking at me.
i guess it is normal,
since i stood there quite long.
after meeting geokgeok,
walked to centrepoint.
she ate her dinner,
which is fries at mac,
while i only drink something.
after that,
we both tired le,
so never go to plaza singapura.
took MRT back home.
after reaching home,
i felt very dizzy,
also don't know why.
kept feeling like vomiting.
so went to sleep earlier.

-080908-
today woke up early.
still feel very dizzy.
i think maybe yesterday in the sun for too long or something bah.
no appetite at all.
=(

2008-09-06T22:23:00.005+08:00

Saw this in a chain mail...
also don't know how accurate it is...
i guess only time will tell...

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water

Trustworthy.

Attractive.

Great kisser.

One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships.

Can be clumbsy at times but tries hard.

Will take on any project.

Proud of themselves in whatever they do.

Messy, and unorganized.

Procrastinators.

Great lovers, when their not sleeping.

Extreme thinkers.

Loves their pets usually more then their familiy.

Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story.

Unpredictable.

Will exceed your expectations.

Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

2008-09-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

watched more movies...
freaky friday...
wall-e...
big mamma's house...
bridge to terabithia...
nancy drew...
etc...etc...

2008-09-03T21:36:00.001+08:00

Tags reply:
Jaslyn: yeah, if really no time then don't watch. so far i watch, i really don't see any attraction in the show. just watch for fun and to kill time. haha. you better focus on your o levels instead, since it is coming soon. =P

2008-09-03T01:47:00.000+08:00

Tags reply:
Jaslyn: yeah. but if i am not wrong, only for episode one and two.

2008-09-02T00:32:00.005+08:00

i know it is a little late,

but just got the photos from Regina.

our mini party during the last session of LMS.

thanks regina~~~!!!

These are some of the notes T05 wrote for me.
There is Kenneth weird MAEC graph. haha

My beloved meiji chocolate Food that some of them bought
supposed to take a group photo. but the guys kinda got attracted to the food
first group photo at last...
another...
writing something nice about each other.
we form a chain...

Our beloved and beautiful Ms. Samantha Lau
Food, Food and more Food.

2008-09-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

Tags reply:
Jaslyn: In 无敌珊宝妹 first episode, they got show chunxi carrying Ji Nian Ri, who is their baby. i think only in second episode, xinyi will appear.

2008-08-31T17:26:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
Jaslyn: yeah. i also feel that the first episode not creative enough. but it is still kinda funny though. i will still continue to watch and see what happen. nicholas's role has different personality when he is adult and when he is young. seriously, wu di is a jerk when he is older. the baby of chunxi and xinyi is so cute in the first episode. haha.

2008-08-31T17:10:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa!

friday went out with pearl.
so long never see her le.
haha.
dunno what to eat,
put we both not so hungry,
so walk around first.
finally decided on eating long john silver.
the prices all shot up lor.
quite shock.
watched death race.
nice nice nice.
although i am not into racing,
but this show kept me captivated.
haha.
slack the whole of saturday.
watch movies online,
some rewatch,
some i wanted to watch last time but no time,
so just for fun, joy and laughter.
watch movies like bee movie, she's the man, alvin and the chipmunks, penelope, meet the robinsons, norbit, a bit of material girls.
today also slack slack slack.
haha.
continue my own movie marathon.

recently,
i realised how precious every minute and seconds it is to us.
you will never know what will happen next.
read on an article about how a 19 years old died horribly in a car accident,
when she just contacted her friend moments before the accident took place.
also read the blog of her friend,
she is quite emotional and depressed over the death of her friend.
also,
saw in fathin's blog that mdm suharni's husband just passed away.
with this,
i really feel the vulnerability of life,
and how i appreciate every moments of life.
i will try to make everyday more meaningful,
and full of laughter.

2008-08-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: i nervous leh... scared cannot get the timing i want. later become cross level worst. *heart palpitating wildly* but now also cannot change anything le. of course she will think of you lar... she rui mama leh... haha. good friends mah... i think i also not going for PAL le. no mood le. but the 6 sept you still going not? liwen asking me about it, but i originally not going le. haha.

2008-08-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa!

nothing much happen today...
download videos and songs~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON~!

2008-08-28T23:55:00.004+08:00

Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero never comes to you

If you need someone you're feeling blue

If you're away from love and you're alone

If you call your friends and nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide

Through a storm and through a lonely night

Then I show you there's a destiny

The best things in life

They're free

Chorus:

But if you wanna cry

Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone who cares for you

If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know

There's a place in heaven where we'll go

If heaven is a million years away

Oh just call me and I make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue

When the days are getting hard for you

I will always stay here by your side

I promise you I'll never hide

Repeat chorus

What real love can do

What love can do

What real love can do

What love can do

What real love can do

What love can do

got addicted to this song recently.

heard it from Shir's blog.

i think quite nice lar.

haha...

2008-08-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

Tags reply:
Jaslyn: lead actor and actress --> 張棟樑, 郭采潔

2008-08-27T19:26:00.001+08:00

watched finish 命中注定我爱你~~~
ending a bit normal,
quite disappointed after watching.
kinda expected the ending le,
nothing special.
nevertheless,
NICE SHOW!
gonna watch 无敌珊宝妹 next.
hehehe~~~

2008-08-27T19:06:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

-250808-
Movie marathon~~~
supposed to meet at 10am de,
vaneza was late.
haha.
go read magazine first before she arrive.
didn't bring student card,
so also cannot borrow yet.
haha.
watch charlotte's web.
nice nice nice.
charlotte was so clever.
haha.
but the ending was so sad.
charlotte died.
both of us cried.
for a change,
watch something more funny,
watch failure to launch.
so funny lor.
ending also not bad.
but the disc got a bit of problem and end up jamming in the middle.
spoilt the show a little lar.
after that vaneza go find the councillor,
so i just walk walk a bit to see what other nice film the library have first.
after she return,
we watched last holiday.
funny.
kinda expected the ending le,
but still nice.
haha.
after that cannot watch any more movie le,
coz library close at 5pm.
sad.
wanted to watch some more.
after that go shaw house there eat.
food there very nice.
can't remember the shop name though.
haha.
after that go far east plaza walk walk.
at first wanted to buy bag,
but cannot make up my mind so never buy le,
purely shop shop for fun only.
walked to doby ghaut after that.
walk until leg very ache.
maybe because of the heels.
wanted to buy auntie anne's for shine de,
but too expensive le,
so never buy.
go carrefour walk walk again.
bought a box of chocolate for myself,
and a bag of biscuit for shine and gans.
after that,
went to outside of plaza singapura to rest and chit chat for a while.
vaneza took bus back,
while i took the MRT.
so nice of vaneza to spend the whole day with me,
especially at night,
coz she walk all over the place.

-260808-
woke up early today.
went to airport to send shine and gans off.
meet them at terminal 3.
first time go there.
a lot of shop not open yet.
maybe because never go around the terminal,
so i don't think it look any nicer than terminal 1 and 2.
follow shine go buy a bag,
as the one she used torn off.
she have a lot of luaggage.
no place sell bag,
luckily fair price have.
decided on buying two recycling bags.
haha.
luckily it fit nicely.
she managed to solve the luaggage problem.
after sending off them,
meet mum at tampines mrt.
went to courts megastore,
bought a new fridge.
the old one totally stop working,
oh well,
it's been 20 over years le.
haha.
after that,
walk around courts megastore and giants.
bought a few things.
after that,
went to han's to eat.
the food there not bad lar,
i don't think that it is too expensive.
went home after that.

-270808-
new fridge came today.
at first cannot fit into the place where our old fridge is,
luckily it fits just alright.
helped clean the fridge and pack the stuff into the fridge.
help mum cook lunch after that.
after lunch,
mum went out,
so i slack whole day.

Tags Reply:
Cherlynn: haha. you everytime take note of your number de. i know you start working le, heard it from shine yesterday before she "flies" off. all the best with your work. ganbatte! if cannot go for PAL then nevermind lor. seriously, it is super boring, but SUPER difficult to sell. we not selling post-it lor, selling the duck. so you can imagine~~~ i still going though, to past time, and charity. haha. remember our date on 15 September, or rather 16 September, see which one you think it is bah. haha...

2008-08-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

Long time never post pictures le.

some of the outdated pictures...

Some of the notes i took while doing revision...
My beloved T05.

will miss every single one of you.

Vaneza...

taken while slacking in library

Shine~~~ Kept bullying her while she read magazine. haha

Shine out of nowhere start to rip the plastice cup apart.

A very cute photo of shine taken from her HP

Guess which one is my finger. haha

The $10 miniature duck i am selling.
This is considered the cutest among those that i took.

The post-it worth $2

NP national day celebration

2008-08-24T22:19:00.001+08:00

Saw this on Xiao Jas blog.
go try out also.
haha.

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2008-08-24T22:13:00.001+08:00

Tags reply:
Cherlynn: HELLO! OMG! you read my blog! haha. hey, come back to Singapore one day lar, never shop with you leh....

2008-08-24T21:32:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa!

Very long never post again.
haha.
will post more often now.

-180808-
went for BMGT exam early in the morning.
went there earlier to study at atrium.
sure die de,
so many things to memorize,
and my brain totally blank.
if lucky,
maybe will pass,
but definitely not score.
after exam go meet my sec sch gans.
meet Polar at the library bus stop first.
i was too early.
haha.
polar said she cut her hair,
but i see like no difference.
after that go take bus to DMN meet Teddri.
we go DMN collect my testimonial.
finally got it lor,
after so long.
haha.
but the security very tight,
only allow me to enter.
so bad lor.
so polar and teddri wait for me outside and chit chat with the security uncle first.
saw Mrs Neo.
haha.
but she didn't see me.
after that took bus back to interchange.
ate swensen.
polar and teddri bought ice cream but i never.
the bill add up to a lot.
haha.
but once in a while lar,
still not that bad.
after lunch,
go watch Meet Dave.
i know it is a bad time to watch movie,
but it was a rare gathering.
while waiting for the movie time,
we go walk walk around first.
the movie was funny lar,
quite cute.
after that teddri and polar went back first,
while i go meet my mum.
went to singnet to get my broadband recontract.
got a new wireless broadband.
yay.
and the speed was slightly faster too.
but cannot use immediately.
=.=
after that,
went home.

-190808-
nothing much happen.
study BLAW.
sianz...............

-200808-
BLAW exam.
late for the exam.
took cab down,
but major jamming all around the road to school.
die i tell you.
miss the 10 min reading time.
kinda got affected lar,
coz after reaching the classroom,
whole brain blank,
plus very tired due to the running.
so cannot remember a lot of things le.
moral of the story,
DUN TAKE CAB TO SCHOOL.
haha.
after that,
went home.

-210808-
INFA exam.
nervous.
cannot finish the paper.
my balance sheet is not balanced some more.
no time to check.
time to tight le.
i think can pass lar,
but cannot score.
did really badly for all my exam this time round.
hate myself.
next semester must really study le,
and right from the start.
jiayou jiayou jiayou!
after exam went home.

-220808-
whole day at home.
at night go eat crystal jade kitchen again.
haha.
my beloved xiao long bao~~~~~
after that come back to Tampines,
walk around TM and century square.

-230808-
never go anywhere.
got my broadband modem fixed,
update my computer,
and change a new ram for my computer.
now my computer slightly faster le.
haha.
lesser lagging.
after that,
aunty sermoi came over.
ate dinner together.
getai downstairs my house super noisy,
luckily my room still quite alright.

-240808-
wake up early today.
took mrt with mum together.
she went to church while i went to orchard.
reached there too early,
so walk around slowly.
all the shop not open so just stand at one corner lor.
wait until 10am like that go meet up with PAL.
change into the new T-Shirt.
the shirt too big lor.
got 10 ducks to sell.
went to far east,
we just stand at the taxi stand opposite far east,
just thinking where to go,
not even selling,
the security guard chase us away le.
after that go to the overhead bridge,
but not much luck.
after that,
go to the hotel opposite.
over there,
the sales "better".
a lot of people ignore us,
don't even let us finish our sentence,
but some quite nice lar.
only manage to sell 4.
but i think not bad le.
afterall,
the duck so expensive,
miracle to even sell one lor.
everytime sell one,
give me more motivation.
haha.
went for lunch at 12.30pm like that.
they eat but i never eat lar.
leave at 1pm like that.
meet my mum at Tampines.
went to century square first so that i can have my lunch.
after that went to best denki and courts to look at fridge.
our fridge totally spoilt le.
our fridge is older than me lar.
my mum kept saying older things can last longer.
it is really a wonder,
why old things can last longer than new things,
when we have new technology...
didn't buy the fridge yet,
coz need to measure the dimension first.
after that,
went to NTUC to buy some groceries.
after that,
went home.
went to sleep almost immediately.
also don't know why so tired.
wake up for dinner.
watch Beijing Olympics 2008 Closing Ceremony.