It's been a long time since i last blogged.
for the first time,
stayed over at polar's house.
i felt tired and cold for some reason.
>.<
went to wild wild wet before shine start attachment,
and before jiayue flew back to China.
it was quite fun ^_^
i don't know if i have taken things for granted,
or i have been expecting a lot from people,
or i have been too dependent on people.
i realize that there is no such thing that someone will be with you when you needed it even though you believe you are close.
i learnt that i should not stay with the same people,
and i should move ahead and be more socialized.
i felt pangseh,
i felt lonely,
and for the first time,
i tell myself to wake up and move on.
no one is going to help you or stay with you,
so just look at the reality and stop begging.
nothing will come up just because you keep pestering people.
if other people can do it,
so can i!
I was feeling down,
but no one realized it.
i dunno whether to say that i can hide my feelings well,
or i just don't have friends who actually notice at me.
i choose to believe in the first assumption.
i may laugh and joke in front of people,
but how many people actually know that i am crying in the dark?
